“That is a difficulty he has never suffered from,” Darius muttered.
“No, no, allow me to bring you a fitting vein,” Jabon spoke up. “I will be certain that you will be revitalized by her. I have one presently in mind and she is downstairs.”
“All right.” Rhage glared at them all, even though they were little more than a fog around him. “But then I will be off.”
Havers cleared his throat. “I’m afraid, sire, that you must rest the day herein. And perhaps stay longer. You have much to recover from.”
“You have to stay here,” the aristocrat rushed in. “We shall attend all of your needs with promptness and precision, ensuring your speedy recovery.”
Just what he was looking for. A debt owed to a sycophant. The infernal repayment of such an obligation was going to be more than he could endure cheerfully.
“You overestimate my injuries.” To prove his point, Rhage pushed their palms off of himself, sat up and swung his legs off the edge of the bedding. “I do not need to feed and I am—”
As he put weight upon his soles, he had a brief moment of triumph.
The collapse that followed was a total repudiation of his purported strength and independence. And but for Darius’s quick hold upon his biceps, he would have hit the floor—and likely shattered as glass dropped upon stone.
The other brother did not address him. “Yes, Jabon, we shall avail ourselves of your hospitality, and if there is indeed a willing female with a vein, we would be most grateful for her service. Further, please reassure her that the feeding will be witnessed.”
“Right away,” the happy host said.
As a door opened and closed, the sounds and smells of the gathering below flared briefly. And then all was quiet.
“I have done what I can thus far,” Havers said. “Send a doggen unto me if he requires aught during the day. My home is across the street, as you know, so I will be able to get to him in a covered conveyance if I must. I believe he will be well enough provided he feeds, however.”
“Thank you, healer,” Tohrment intoned.
When Rhage was alone with his brothers, he grimaced. “Mayhap we should clean me if there is a female to be present?”
“Aye,” Tohrment said. “I shall start the bath. Jabon took all pains to inform me that his tubs have gas burners underneath, so you will be warm.”
Thank the Virgin Scribe, Rhage thought as the male went into the bathroom.
When the sound of rushing water drifted over, he turned his head to Darius and frowned. “You are in formal dress as well.”
“I was attending the ball when you were found down by the river. I was summoned unto you.”
“Who found me?”
There was a pause. “Zsadist.”
Now Rhage lifted his head, in spite of his sore neck. “You lie.”
“Whyever for? ’Tis the truth. To keep you safe, he slaughtered the population of that lesser encampment in the forest there. He fought them all off after you collapsed, and the stragglers he hunted down and killed after he came and found me here at the celebration. You should be grateful unto him.”
Rhage pictured the brother with the scarred face and the dead, black eyes. “That male kills because he likes to, not to protect anyone. He cares not even for his blooded brother.”
“Whatever his motivation, you are alive only because of him.”
“Where is he the now?”
“Who knows.”
After a moment, Rhage frowned. “So he sent word unto you somehow?”
“Oh, no. He walked right into the ballroom, lesser blood dripping from him and a black dagger in his grip. His entrance was a scene to remember, I assure you.”
Rhage chuckled. “I can only imagine.”
“The announcement of his presence was the virtuoso violinist’s bow screeching across his strings. All stopped. Two females fainted, and at least three males ducked out of the ballroom and ran. As a public service, I went readily unto him and rerouted him out of the gathering.”
“He has the stare of a demon.”
“And the cold heart of one as well. He is as dangerous as your beast in many ways.”
As they fell into silence, Rhage considered his wakeful hours during the previous day. “My brother, I must explain something unto you.”
“What of it, then?”
“I know you do not respect me—”
Dimly, Rhage was aware of the brother putting both his palms up and leaning away. “Now, Rhage, let us not set upon this—”
“’Tis true. And you are not the only one.” He cleared his throat. “I know there are others in the Brotherhood who feel as you do. You believe me frivolous and distracted by females, unfocused and uncommitted.”
“My brother, again, now is not the time—”
“Now or later, the truth is what it is.”
Rhage wished he could read the nuances of Darius’s expression. Except then he realized it might be best to have them blurry. Disdain and distaste were not going to help him farther unto his speech.
“You are well aware of the curse I live with,” he said, “and this night, when you went unto the shores of the river, you saw anew what it is capable of. I do my best to keep it in check, and the way I manage the beast is by laying with women and females and fighting. If I do not burn my energy off, then it can come out, perhaps at an inopportune time. Perhaps around you all.”
“Truly, my brother, there is a better circumstance for this conversation—”
“Is there? Or will you avoid the awkwardness again? I am unsure that you comprehend the extent of my weakness of will and command when the beast is expressed. I do not know what it does. I cannot see or hear or temper its strength and fury in any fashion. But I must live with the aftermath. If one of you were hurt by it? Then it is my fault and I would have to carry that burden for the rest of my nights. Which would be unbearable. I would never recover.”
He pushed himself upward upon the pillows, and in the back of his mind, he wondered if he had stained all the bedding, not just what was against the headboard.
Of course he had.
“You believe,” he continued, “that I am more committed to the hunt for females than the war. This is not false. I am compelled unto them because I must manage the energy that seethes within me every waking moment and all the ones whilst I sleep as well. I hate the sex. It is a meal I am not hungry for in the slightest. The alternative, however, is something I cannot abide. So please know, I am as focused as ever upon the war. But when I fight our enemy, I am at times with you and the other brothers, or imminently to be in your company. My primary concern is, and always will be, the safety of the Brotherhood. It was a blessing of luck I was alone this eve. However, that is not, and will not, always be the case.”
There was a moment of dense quiet. And then Rhage felt his dagger hand clasped by Darius.
“I did not know,” the other brother murmured. “I had no idea.”
Embarrassed by his revelations, Rhage shrugged. “As I said, it is what it is.”
“Why have you not spoken of this before the now?”
“Let us change the subject—”
“Your honor has been unfairly maligned.”
“I’d rather be known as a whoremonger than a coward.”
“How are you a coward?”
Rhage closed his eyes. “I fear that which is inside me. It terrifies me, for I cannot ensure the safety of those I care most about, and it is mine own self whom I cannot trust. But enough of this. It is done.”
The water rushing in the bathroom beyond seemed to grow louder in the silence.
“I am sorry, my brother,” Darius whispered.
“I should not have said aught.” Yet there was something about Darius that made a male want to have his respect.
Clearing his throat, Rhage tried to consider what else they could discuss as that tub, which was evidently deep as a pond, filled at a snail’s pace.
“I must confess, I am surprised that you attended Jabon’s fête,” Rhage forced himself to comment. “Not readily for his company you have ever been.”
“This is true.” Darius cleared his throat, as if he were changing the course of his thoughts. “As it turns out, our host has an acquaintance who may be of aid to me.”
“You need a vein as well, my brother?”
“No, a master of the works for my house upon the great hill. I have had no success finding workmen within the species, and moreover, I believe I have gotten ahead of myself. I need plans and supplies first . . . as well as a person who can conduct a crew. All I have is the mountaintop. Yet there is a male here this eve who has built several constructions in Caldwell and also in New York City and Philadelphia. I met him. He seems a fine sort, although he has an odd name.”
“What does he go by?”
“The Jackal.”
I can’t pay you much!”
Nyx shouted the words as she jumped out of the hidden space, just before the panel slid back into place. Then she cursed at how loud she was.
Up ahead, the male with the broad back and the long braid stopped. When he didn’t turn around and look at her, she had no idea what the hell he was going to do. What she was clear on? It was good to have her weapons back on her body. And in her hand.
The male slowly pivoted on his heel. As their eyes met, her breath caught, but damned if she was going to show it.
“Pay me,” he said. “As in give me cash?”
“I have five hundred dollars. That’s all I’ve got.”
The male looked past her and then behind himself. “And just what do you think I shall do with money down here?”
“Isn’t there, like, a black market or something?”
“A black market?”
“You know, bribing guards. Or other prisoners.”
Yeah, like she was such an expert after all those Lockdown episodes she’d watched from her living room armchair.
For a moment, he just stared at her. And as a scent like dark spices entered her nose, she frowned—and so did he.