“And you will be.” Gabe lifted his gaze again, and the sympathy in his eyes nearly brought me to tears. “But that may not be enough.”
“Meaning?” I said, but the word sounded hollow, far away. As if I wasn’t actually part of the conversation, but hearing it. Trying to live through it.
“Meaning there is no guarantee,” Ethan said.
Gabriel pushed a hand through his hair, his frustration obvious. “I’m sorry. I didn’t intend to talk about this here. It’s not the time or the place.”
“If there’s danger out there, it’s exactly the time and place.”
Gabriel grunted, an acknowledgment of Ethan’s protectiveness.
“What do we do?” I asked.
“Don’t live in fear,” Gabriel said. “Just live. Keep your people close; keep your eyes open. That’s all any of us can do.”
A few feet away, Tanya turned back, beckoned Gabriel to her. His attention shifted, narrowed on his wife, like a man too accustomed to the possibilities of danger and loss.
He pressed a hard kiss to my forehead. “Be careful, Kitten,” he said, then strode to his wife.
Ethan and I stood quietly together for a moment.
“I told him not to call you Kitten,” he muttered, probably just to make me smile. Which worked.
“Yeah, well, we can’t always get what we want.”
The words were out before I’d thought about them, and I reached out, squeezed Ethan’s hand, made myself lean into the uncertainty.
“I don’t want him to be right. I don’t want Mallory to be right. I want the world to spin like it has for these last few months, when my toughest decision was picking out a bridesmaid dress for Charlotte.”
“And perhaps dealing with the ghost.”
“And the ghost,” I said with a nod as our friendly neighborhood necromancer, Annabelle, swirled on the dance floor with her husband, looking radiant in her signature pale pink.
Ethan put an arm around my waist, pressed his lips to my temple. “We take each night as it comes, just as we have before. That is all we can do, and the best we can do.”
I nodded, let myself have a moment to lean against him, be still beside him, at least until my stomach grumbled.
“Let’s also take in some food.”
I would not argue with that.
• • •
By the time the early hours of the new day approached, just as Mallory had predicted, my face hurt from smiling, I’d ditched my shoes, and curls were slipping loose from the updo Lindsey had worked so carefully to achieve.
Supernaturals, used to the late hour, still danced to the band, which had been playing for hours. A few hearty humans danced, but the rest sat droopy-eyed at tables, yawning as they waited for an opportunity to leave.
“Ladies and gentlemen!” Lindsey said from the stage, microphone in hand. The crowd quieted. “We’ve reached the end of our evening—literally, because the sun will be up in a few hours, and we still have to get Ethan and Merit to their very special bridal suite.”
The crowd hooted.
“But before we go, it’s time for one last tradition. Merit, if you’ll join me onstage, it’s time for you to throw the bouquet!”
Good luck, Sentinel.
I glanced back at Ethan, who winked rakishly. This was the last moment of our wedding, and therefore the last moment before our wedding night began. Uncertain future or not, there was no mistaking the desire in his eyes.
I stepped onto the stage, accepted the bouquet Lindsey offered me. And a good thing, too, as I’d lost track of it hours ago.
A number of women and a handful of men gathered in front of the stage, laughing as they prepared for the ritual. “Everyone ready?”
The screams were high-pitched and energetic. I glanced at Lindsey. “You want to get down there, too?”
“Oh, hell no. My cowboy and I are not contract people.”
“You do you,” I said, and turned around, took the bouquet in both hands, and launched it.
There were shrieks as the bouquet went airborne and the sound of scrambling behind me as high heels and taffeta and manicures battled.
And then a gasp . . . and silence.
I turned around.
A girl with the same tawny hair as Gabriel’s but who was dressed in edgy head-to-toe black stared down at the ribbon-wrapped flowers in her hands, her gaze wide and a little bit horrified.
I’d thrown the bouquet a little too hard, pitching it over the crowd of writhing brides- and grooms-to-be, and landing it in the hands of a woman behind them.
I bit my lip to keep from laughing at her expression. However much she loved Jeff Christopher, marriage did not look to be in Fallon Keene’s immediate plans.
“Oh, now, that is ironic,” Lindsey said behind me. “Congratulations, Fallon!”
The ladies who’d missed gave good-natured applause, but you could tell their hearts weren’t in it. For his part, Jeff walked to Fallon with a wide grin on his face. Suspicion in her eyes, he pulled the bouquet from her hands and kissed her hard. And whatever he whispered to her after that had a smile curving one corner of her mouth.
Yes, there was something about weddings.
• • •
“Before the wedding party disperses and you two head off to Paris,” Shay said, “let’s go outside and get some city shots with the bride, groom, maid of honor, and best man.”
“Is that necessary?” I whispered. “She’s taken seven thousand pictures already.”
Mallory feigned shock. “Seven whole thousand?”
I poked her. “Smart-ass.”
Ethan reached out, took my hand. “Outside is fine,” he said, making the decision for both of us. “I’m thrilled to have more time with my beautiful wife.”
That was a powerful word, and on his lips, nearly seductive.
Just you wait, Ethan silently said, echoing the implicit promise I’d made to him earlier.
Eagerly, I promised him. I have plans for you, Sullivan.
The bright flash of his answering magic lifted goose bumps across my skin.
“We’d better get this done as soon as possible,” Mallory said, grinning at us. “Before they start vamping each other among the stacks.”
Ethan’s smile left little doubt that we’d already explored that particular activity, albeit in the House’s library, rather than this one. “We’ll manage,” he assured her.
• • •
I squeezed my feet into my shoes again, let Lindsey stuff rebel tendrils of hair back into my updo. Catcher came out with Mallory, and when Lindsey was done, Amit offered her a gentlemanly arm.
“You’re becoming an expert escort,” I told him as the elevator whisked us back down to the first floor.
“One of my many skills,” he said, leveling his deep brown eyes at Shay’s camera when she tried to snap a shot.
We walked out of the library’s big brass doors, went down the street to the El train trestle that rose above Van Buren.
“Here,” Shay said, pointing to either side of the steel trestle supports, lit from above so light pooled on the sidewalk. “Ethan on that side, Merit on the other.”
“And we’re doing this,” he said, and stepped on one side, leaned a hand against the steel structure.
“Give me a pose, Merit,” Shay said.
I curled my hands into claws and bared my teeth, heard the responsive click of a camera shutter. I guess she liked it.
“Ahem,” Ethan said, and I glanced at him. He gestured toward the trestle. “Waiting for you, wife.”
“Don’t get huffy, husband,” I said, and mirrored his pose.
Shay took pictures, then gestured to the stairs that rose to the El station. “Go up to the tracks,” she said. “Then look down over the railing.”
We did as she requested. Shay walked into the middle of the street, aimed her camera up at us.
“Do something romantic!” Lindsey called out, and before I could respond, Ethan’s hands were on my face, and his lips were planted on mine. He snaked an arm around my waist and pulled me against the solid length of his body, and the arousal that hardened between us as he deepened the kiss.