“Kayla.” Sylas’ breath tickles my skin and my heart flutters. “Just tell me what you saw. You can tell me anything.”
I don’t know why I just don’t confess. I could blame it on my distrust for him, but that’s not the reason. Without saying another word, I bend under his arms and hurry out of the room, kicking up dirt with my boots.
“Kayla,” Emmy calls out from the end of the hall.
I let her voice echo against my back and pick up my pace.
Sylas walks after me, taking lazy steps. “One day, you’ll get over it and fess up. Lying gets you nowhere. Just ask my brother.”
“There’s nothing for me to fess up to, Sylas.” I leave him behind and climb up the spiral stairway to the next floor. I slip into the room and gently shut the door. No one ever comes up here because no one ever sleeps. I flop down on the old mattress and think of Aiden. I turn restlessly, tuck my hands under my head and then pull them away. I can’t sleep, which used to be fine before I turned human. But now it nearly kills me if I don’t get daily rest. But I have to know. Not just about Aiden’s death, but about Monarch. What is my purpose? Why did he create me so I could walk with the vampires? To kill them all, or turn them back to humans?
I roll out of bed and tiptoe to the door. The lanterns are out and the hall is dense with night. I inch out and check left and right. No one’s around and I sneak up the final flight of stairs. At the top is a room the Day Takers hide medicine in. I know they have minte stashed inside because I saw it once. But Sylas refuses to let me use it. He doesn’t have a reason, just like he doesn’t have a reason for a lot of things he does and doesn’t do.
The door is locked and I try to bust the knob. But my strength’s lacking. Clasping the doorknob, I thrust my shoulder into the door. The metal collides against my skin and I feel a bruise forming. I give it another slam, harder this time, and my bones ache. Backing away, I eye the door, knowing what I’m about to do is going to hurt like hell. With a deep breath, I sprint forward and fling my entire body into the door. The trimming snaps apart and splinters to the ground. My shoulder jolts upward, striking me in the cheek. I bite the inside of my mouth and the bitter taste of rust and salt floods my taste buds. I spit, wipe the blood from my lips, and kick the door open.
The room is the size of a closet. The walls are lined with shelves that have vials of medicine perched in stands. I rummage through the dark until I spot a cluster of clear ones on the top shelf. Planting my shoes on the bottom shelf, I reach up and grab a vial and a syringe. Then I quickly slip out of the storage area. The door’s condition is hopeless—they’re going to know someone’s been inside. But I’ll worry about that when the time comes.
I hurry down the stairs, into my room, and prop a metal shelf against the door so no one can get in while I’m under. I shuffle over to the mattress and lie flat on my back. There’s a huge yellowish-brown stain on the ceiling. It’s the last thing I see when I sink the minte into my arm. My eyes roll into the back of my head as I’m dragged under, picturing only Aiden and his death.
***
“I don’t understand.” I stand in the middle of the hospital wing while Monarch digs in his medicine cabinet. “Why are you doing this?”
Monarch shakes his head and faces me. “Kayla, you’re letting your emotions get in the way again… too many questions. Always too many questions. You need to stop asking them. And you need to stop feeling so much.”
“But you said Aiden was going to die—that he was a lost cause.” I step in front of him, tilting my head to meet his eyes. “How can I not ask questions about that?”
“You’re never supposed to ask questions.” He sighs. “You can’t ask them until the time’s right.”
“And when will that be?”
He brushes by and heads to a hospital bed where an unconscious Colony member lies with a beeping monitor hooked up to them. “Kayla, I said that’s enough.”
I catch his arm, stunning him. “Tell me why Aiden’s going to die.”
His voice trembles, “Because I messed up when I created him. I really did. And unless he changes his mind about his existence, he won’t survive.”
“When does he die?” I choke. My hand and heart are shaking in rhythm. “When will he die?”
He swallows hard. “Soon, unless you change his mind about life and death.”
I want to cry. I want to scream. I’m feeling things I never thought were possible. My jaw’s hanging open, my brown eyes are wide. “I’ll change his mind then. I won’t let him die.” I head for the door, but he hurries in front of me.
“Not today, Kayla. That project is on hold.” Monarch’s worry shifts to sympathy. “I’m sorry Kayla. But to save the world, sacrifices have to be made. The world must come first.” Then he moves a needle for my arm. “But one day you might get your chance.”
I fling my hand at him, but he seizes it, his finger sinking into my skin with an alarming amount of strength.
“I’m sorry,” he apologizes and the needle immerses into my forearm.
The medicine burns my veins, my body, every part of me. But all I can think about is Aiden dying.
Chapter 4
“Kayla,” someone whispers. “Kayla, wake up.”
My muscles spasms as I start to revive. My body feels like I’ve taken a beating from a vampire and my heart is about to pound out of my chest.
“Damn it, Kayla,” Sylas all but growls. “I can’t believe you did this.”
I’m not sure how to react to the panic in his tone, but I summon enough strength to push my eyelids open. His dark eyes are on me, the light of a lantern making them smolder like embers. His hands are tucked under my neck, supporting my head. He doesn’t say anything; he just helps me sit up. I’m shaking uncontrollably and I don’t know what to do.
“Calm down,” Sylas says. He gently releases my neck, takes my hand in his, and turns it over. Scratches ooze blood. “That was a really smart thing to do,” he says sarcastically.
I remove my hand from his. “I just wanted to see what’s going on. I need to know what I’m doing. It’s driving me crazy.”
His gaze penetrates into my heart and under my skin. “That’s not what you were doing. There’s something you’re hiding from me.” He leans onto his elbows and hovers over me. “If you’d just tell me, then maybe I could help.”
I press my lips together and smear my bloody hand on the side of my jeans, wincing from the sting. “I think… I think Aiden might be in trouble.”
“In trouble?” he questions. “Because there are tons of ways I can think of, starting with the fact that he’s human.”
“I think he might be dying.” The truth fumbles from my lips.
Sylas stares as me, surprised and unsure. “Of course he’s dying,” he says, all of the emotion erasing from his face. “He’s human and all humans die someday.”
“That’s not what I mean.” I stand, ignoring the dizziness and the acceleration of my pulse.
He pushes to his feet, standing close, invading my personal space—which is his favorite thing to do. “Then what do you mean, Kayla. I’m not a mind reader, so you’ll have to just spit it out.”
“What I saw… Monarch said he messed Aiden up.” I suck in a breath at the sting in my heart. “And that he’s going to die because of it. Unless I change his mind.”
“Messed him up how?” He wonders, unaffected.
I shrug, shaking my head. “He didn’t clarify the details.”
“Of course he didn’t.” Sylas flex’s his hand. “He never does. But that’s why he’s been able to keep the secrets to saving the world hidden for so long.”
“But what do I need to change his mind about?” I ask. “What could I possibly say that could save him?”
He waits impatiently for me to catch on. “It’s not your words that will save him. It’s what your words convince him to do.”
I frown, disheartened. “I have to convince him to become a Day Taker.”
He runs his fingers through his hair, fascinated by my answer. “If that’s what you think will save him.”
“I don’t know what will save him. I don’t know how to save anyone.” I take a step back, putting some space between us. “So what do we do now? We’ve got Highers running the streets and my memories are only adding more questions and problems to fix.”
“We keep digging into your mind,” he answers simply. “We need to find out exactly what Monarch is planning. Why he created us. And how we’re supposed to save the world when it’s already dead. I mean, what is there to save?"
“But what about Aiden? I think I need to save him too.”
“Why?” Sylas arches his eyebrow. “You want to go on a saving crusade? Let your human instincts get the best of you?” He pauses. “You’re going to have to make the decision: save Aiden, or save the world. And if saving Aiden means getting him to turn, I think it’s a pointless crusade.” He walks out, the door swaying against the breeze of his rapid exit.
I’m beginning to learn it is difficult making decisions. Not wanting to decide yet, I take out a bottle of water from the rotted cabinet beside the bed. The bottle is old and rusted and the water smells stale, but it works. I tilt my head down and drape my hair over. Then I twist off the cap and pour a stream of water across my neck and hair. The water drips down my forehead and to the floor, pooling red around my boots. It feels good to clean the blood off, but the open wounds will take time to heal.
I sigh, part of me missing the medicine Monarch used to heal injuries in an instant. I close the bottle and put it back in the cupboard. I ring my hair out, flop down on the mattress, and wince from the pain burning on the back of my head. I slide my hand between the mattress and the wall. My fingers fumble around until they graze against my backpack. Inside it is the vial that can change me into a Day Taker. And Monarch’s gold pocket watch. I pull the watch out—his so-called key to the answers. But no matter what I do with it, it remains an inoperative watch.